express: lighting a flame to see where my compass is pointing me (in progress)

express: lighting a flame to see where my compass is pointing me (in progress): Ati

will baby

I am full of Your fire and Will,
that Lights a tapestry of candles
behind my eyes.
I am full of Your fire and Will,
that Fuels the words
I could never shape my mouth to speak.

I will be brave and fill in the gaps
with bartered strength and a beating heart's determination.
I will be brave and fill the blank,
threatening pages before me, vividly-
Hope streaming deeper with each and every Line.

Lifting the Veil

The veil has been lifted from my eyes
In my head I know this won't be a suprise
I lift you, I lift you high to see me in my eyes

You've never been inside me before like this
You've mever seen a girl crushed over and ocer again by two fists.

I've got one love and that love is rare.
I've got one gracious thing going for me
and I'll keep going until I learn to stand
'Cause I won't fall down all over my own feet this time.

April has wings to lift us again

April has wings to lift us again
Right before Spring we are lowered into soft ground
Recovering and coping with Winter.
Soundlessly we rise again.
Rise like the sunrise in all of our dreams.

lacklsuter

I've been empty for home
for some time in my life.

This home is in my heart and I want to get it right,

I've been looking for your hand
to take me to straight through say and night,

tall, black and fizzy heart

you Warn me with the right type of sadness before I fall to a memory of dust,

Love starred (starved?) Belly pain.

zanny rush Limbo
Quiet, morning Lights.

Complete and light,
on Love-life smug lips

I'll survive this day, I will,
to Be with Him, Tonight.

९ वायस आउट

9 ways in and 9 ways out
I'd like to show you
all the things you make me care about.

1 to your soft eyes
and 2 for the sadness they've seen
3 for all of your touches
4 my body is blushing serene.

5 for the minutes I wanted you bad
6 are the seconds I count to when sad.

7 is for when we talk about life,
we kiss today for there may be no heaven, just strife.

8 shows up on a black rolling ball,
if it drops in the hole too soon, babe,
don't worry, I'll hold you, don't fall.

9 is for every way in and every way out,
I can't run, I can't hide
Not from the 1
that knows what my numbers are about.
The night is strong, The stars pull bright
Serotonin seas of tears are lost for the night.

sing through the rainy days

I don't need money or cocaine;
I just need somebody with a good heart to tame.

Ophiuchus

Pull me from the ocean
Kiss me from the Coast.

I don't know, know what
I'm supposed to do

I Burn, and I Burn
and it's all because of you.

love 1

love is about breaking barriers that stopped you in the past.

she spins fire in the night

Fire in the chords of the keys of the New Year's Piano and fire in the depths of the mind, It is perfect, I am a living, breathing, loving and affected THING of this earth,

---gjgvh

New love, holy thoughts
We are strapped together
Freinds forever.

december 16, 2010

Dear Grandma,

I missed you today for the first time.
I really wanted you here to talk to.
I had something important to ask you.
For once, I had something.
Why now, and not during all those slow moments we waited for you to die.
Each minute around you after your mind had gone and you were a shell of a ghost of a memory of my role model, my nurturing true mother, my everything, my explanation of how I am the way I am and I sat there looking into your still breathing eyes searching for just one thing to tell you and all I reciprocated was silence.

Dear Grandma,
I went to La Salette tonight to cry for you, finally.
I expected the lights turned on for Christmas and it was going to be my first time seeing them, special!
Do you know I live here now, by La Salette? I heard you used to love it and bring older members of my family here.
My eyes were so black with heroin I could not see the lights
Maybe that's why I haven't been seeing you,
I know you were watching me thought there were not even lights

Take the reigns with me.

In the dark afternoon I hunt alone, my path foggy yet seamlessly unwinding,
In the dark afternoon I ponder it all, my own self an equation too blinding.


I'm just looking for someone brave enough to take the reigns with me,
That's right, you know it, pull back, go forward, be my baby.

I'm not searching for someone who can say the same nice words I've heard before
I'm looking to hear those same nice words and have it sound
true, important, and really for me me, forever more.

Hand over hand, we're driving fast to a destination straight and far from where we were last,
Hand over hand, pull the reigns hard with me, just to tighten my grip don't let go.

Hand over hand, hands so I can be stronger, I can be focused and my feet won't leave the floor,
Hand over hand, so in your eyes I can be remarkable, I can be a magician and open that door

We've both left so much behind, it's a wonder we met each other blindly.
You react to my hips, my curves my uniqueness like it's been created for your body.

We've both got so much to receive in this world, it's no wonder every time I'm surprised,
that it's you who is that finds me, and I like the way you do it, better every time.

I'm just looking for someone to take the reigns with me, it don't
have to look picture perfect, and there's no forced smiles to be drawn
Simply grab me, pull me close to you, and we'll both be composers to this song.

Take the reigns, oh, take the reigns with me,
it don't have to be picture perfect just be ready to be free.

Hand over hand, we're driving fast to a destination straight and far from where we were last
Hand over hand, pull the reigns hard with me, just to tighten my grip don't let go.

I'm just looking for someone brave enough to take the reigns with me,
That's right, you know it, pull back, go forward, be my baby.

Take the reigns, oh, take the reigns with me,
it don't have to be picture perfect just be ready to be free.

North Star Sighting

white russian revival-
joyous! rhythmic! gracious lips
effortless tongue waltzes-
heart warming soft hair body warmer
Oh, God to be one for a whole night.

new friend

You tell me this is a new beginning
but you must close your eyes so you can't see I'm stuck at an end.

You tell me this is all friendly,
but when our lips lock there is something we choose not to comprehend.

We are lovers of love, romantics of the past.
We want our life happy and we want it back fast.

I can't blame you, I do it, too.
If I could make up chemistry with our gaze I'd do it all for you.

Tossed like a Skipping Stone

I was Tossed like a Skipping Stone
right in the pale moonlight.
I thought my soul was lost, but it was my Soul that threw the me into the night.

I tried to save myself
by Drowning in my Fears

I tried to pay my dues, by facing my own tears
(I've been swimming in them).

I was Tossed like a Skipping Stone
someone whispered I'd be all right.

I was Tossed like a Skipping Stone
I sank and floated through the night.

The wind chilled my skin but my body was not there.
The darkness froze my senses but I felt enough that bare.

I was Tossed like a Skipping Stone
and I made it through the night.

I was Tossed like a Skipping Stone
discarded, reborn when it was right.

Notice to Ease elucidate an Embrace

There's something dark in Him.

I see it and I still don't care.

Rather trusting of bold Strikes

First taste daze &

and buyers without Wares.

The spaces of this man's mind I don't understand are villianized,
I allow his hands to guide the waltz,

Our eyes meet briefly acknowledging we hear the same music.


And our bodies move together and the story starts and I .

I focus on writing it perfectly, do anything to keep the story going.

I make a blunt motion and take more of his weight on me and I
I akwardly adjust my body to his.

I don't get scared, I don't fight it. I don't expect it. Each time.

Love and life I learn so deeply, my persistent student heart drives me to solitude.


I strain to adjust my body to his, she to he, my joints buckle, bones brittle.

There's something dark in him.

I just need to be held so I can make this story work.


Because the fight is keeping me alive.

I mock the hope I am infested with

Waiting, patient peace dove in my heart blushing with
the dream to beat pure and free one day.

I'm fixing the problem of only seeing the good in everyone.

By provoking the darkness I struggle to be free of; Love predators.
It’s love like a cause to question every beginning
e living, unfolding predestinations grasping for Breadth.

lighting a flame to see where my compass is pointing me (in progress)

I light my candles
At night to sleep,
It protects the fortress that-
you left for me to weep.

I kept a light on for you,
thought you're smile would come through the door
I think I see why people pay to laugh
And why poets compose memorable words that are recited, every more.

Each night alone alone felt like a week.

I thought you were a knight
And I was your princess
but I was your sky and i followed you away from the stars
because you promised to be my compass

I needed direction
I know it was a lot to ask
But we spoke of love and our family
every night you made me dam sure you would last

I pray for mercy, I pray to ease the pain so- excuse me if
the sound of sleigh bells leaves my face full of tears like rain

Jesus and I, well, we had a falling out just before
And the first time was not late last night
when so much fear came upon me,
the bible fell from my hands right to the floor

I thought this candle had burned down
And my life was hopeless to the core
I thought the last of my matches
would mean I've become a widow, ever more

This little island of mine
only stretches and expands so far
The land is like quick sand, I'd take any thing consistent... even if I am promised endless tar.

This might be true, and-
you might be right
I might as well just love that I love-
and think today I should be in love tonight,

So, drop your axe, old flame
Stay cold and bereft of my warm heart
The day you chose to stop going towards love
and straight to worship was when we should have part.