---gjgvh

New love, holy thoughts
We are strapped together
Freinds forever.

december 16, 2010

Dear Grandma,

I missed you today for the first time.
I really wanted you here to talk to.
I had something important to ask you.
For once, I had something.
Why now, and not during all those slow moments we waited for you to die.
Each minute around you after your mind had gone and you were a shell of a ghost of a memory of my role model, my nurturing true mother, my everything, my explanation of how I am the way I am and I sat there looking into your still breathing eyes searching for just one thing to tell you and all I reciprocated was silence.

Dear Grandma,
I went to La Salette tonight to cry for you, finally.
I expected the lights turned on for Christmas and it was going to be my first time seeing them, special!
Do you know I live here now, by La Salette? I heard you used to love it and bring older members of my family here.
My eyes were so black with heroin I could not see the lights
Maybe that's why I haven't been seeing you,
I know you were watching me thought there were not even lights

Take the reigns with me.

In the dark afternoon I hunt alone, my path foggy yet seamlessly unwinding,
In the dark afternoon I ponder it all, my own self an equation too blinding.


I'm just looking for someone brave enough to take the reigns with me,
That's right, you know it, pull back, go forward, be my baby.

I'm not searching for someone who can say the same nice words I've heard before
I'm looking to hear those same nice words and have it sound
true, important, and really for me me, forever more.

Hand over hand, we're driving fast to a destination straight and far from where we were last,
Hand over hand, pull the reigns hard with me, just to tighten my grip don't let go.

Hand over hand, hands so I can be stronger, I can be focused and my feet won't leave the floor,
Hand over hand, so in your eyes I can be remarkable, I can be a magician and open that door

We've both left so much behind, it's a wonder we met each other blindly.
You react to my hips, my curves my uniqueness like it's been created for your body.

We've both got so much to receive in this world, it's no wonder every time I'm surprised,
that it's you who is that finds me, and I like the way you do it, better every time.

I'm just looking for someone to take the reigns with me, it don't
have to look picture perfect, and there's no forced smiles to be drawn
Simply grab me, pull me close to you, and we'll both be composers to this song.

Take the reigns, oh, take the reigns with me,
it don't have to be picture perfect just be ready to be free.

Hand over hand, we're driving fast to a destination straight and far from where we were last
Hand over hand, pull the reigns hard with me, just to tighten my grip don't let go.

I'm just looking for someone brave enough to take the reigns with me,
That's right, you know it, pull back, go forward, be my baby.

Take the reigns, oh, take the reigns with me,
it don't have to be picture perfect just be ready to be free.